Went down after reading her letter, and played and sang the
_Gloria in Excelsis_ of Pergolesi, with all my soul. So then I repeated
it, and burst out crying in the middle. Oh shame! shame!"
_"Dec. 24th._--Edward started for London at five in the morning to take a
place for us. The servants were next told, and received warning; the one
we had the poorest opinion of, she is such a flirt, cried, and begged
mamma to let her share our fallen fortunes, and said she could cook a
little and would do her best. I kissed her violently, and quite forgot I
was a young lady till she herself reminded me; and she looked frightened
at mamma. But mamma only smiled through her tears and said, 'Think of it
quietly, Sarah, before you commit yourself.'"
"I am now sitting in my old room, cold as a stone: for I have packed up
some things: so the first step is actually taken. Oh, if I but knew that
he was happy! Then I could endure anything. But how can I think so? Well,
I will go, and never tell a soul what I suspect, and he cannot tell, even
if he knows: for it is his father. Jane, too, avoids all mention of her
own father and brother more than is natural.
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